Sudden Realiziation

So lately I've been considering a career change. I wake up every morning feeling slightly more sick than the day before and think of a million ways to get out of what I have to do. This bothers me because this is NOT me. I have always enjoyed children, being busy, learning and I'll admit it, leading things. With this said I'm constantly wondering why I don't want to go into my classroom and do all of these things. I thought becoming a teacher would be the perfect career for me. I think I was wrong, or maybe the environment is wrong. I am repeatedly analyzing the decisions I have made which can only lead me to believe that I need a change. Considering I love my husband more than life itself, have a great condo, wonderful friends and the perfect family, the problem must be me. When I don't have to work, I'm happy. This is a problem you see because I have to work. Remember the great condo I was just talking about, well that doesn't come cheap and I'm much too accustomed to change things now. So I sit and think and I just keep coming back to a career change. I realized today that I really want to be a psychologist. I want to focus on children and have my own practice. These are things I want, I need to get there. I need to stop focusing on trying to make teaching ok and just realize that I don't like it. I don't like yelling at children and I don't like being a motivational speaker for 90% of each day. I want to help children and families, I want to help others feel better about themselves. But, what I also want is to feel better about myself. Now I just have to figure out how to swing another graduate program on top of completing a first masters and teaching full-time. However, I do love a good challenge...

Camping at Starved Rock

We just got home from a weekend camping trip to Starved Rock State Park. The park was gorgeous and we had a great time camping. Leaving Friday I was a little concerned about the weather, since it was supposed to dip into freezing temps that night, but things worked out fine. It was a little chilly but the fire was warm enough to keep us up late and the days were perfect. We spend Friday night eating smores and drinking wine. Saturday was a great day for hiking, so we headed to the state park and explored 3 different trails. Saturday night we sat around a fire again, ate and talked. It was one of the nicest and most relaxing weekends we've had in awhile. Only problem is it sparked our love for camping a little too close to winter. I'm hoping we can get one more time in with friends before it gets to cold.

Diet coke gone wrong

Leaving work today I decided that going to the grocery store with the level of hunger I had would be disastrous. To take care of this, I pulled through McDonald's to grab a quick snack and diet coke. Since I was extremely thirsty when I got the pop, I drank about half quite quickly. I immediately noticed that something didn't taste right. I drink diet coke more than I should and I'm quite sure that something wasn't right at this point. About 15 minutes into my drive I began to feel strange, more so, drunk. My eyes felt blurry and my arms were tingly. I then seriously starting to consider that diet coke again. I pulled over and took the lid off to see if it smelled funny. It did. It smelled like liquor. It smelled, more particularly, like rum. I immediately became concerned with the fact that I was driving. Luckily, I was only a mile from my husbands work so I got there safely. He agreed that the drink smelled like alcohol. Point being, I should have saved the cup and sued them. Reality, I did nothing, except save the cup incase they had poisoned me or something. I guess the moral for the story is McDonald's is running a special on DUI's for $2.16. Unbelievable.

Crazy ladies:)

Another wedding on the horizon equals another crazy weekend with the girls. This time we were in celebration of Jen and Dane's wedding coming up in September. We spent all day Saturday at the beach followed by a night out in Grand Haven filled with eating, drinking, dancing and above all, laughter. My cheeks were actually aching at points throughout the night from laughing so hard. All the girls had a great time and we can't wait for our next outing!

Almost time

Yesterday I spent all day in my classroom beginning setup for another year. It was a great day to be at school since they were hosting a fun fair for the kids and parents to welcome them back. I was really excited to see a few of my students from last year roaming around the building. However, they were even more excited to see me. It was so cute how they would say my name and coming running as if I was a celebrity. I couldn't believe how thrilled they were that I was there and I was almost as thrilled about them;) I guess I am going to miss having all of them there with me all day, but it's nice they're all across the hall. Possibly because they were my first class of students, I think I'll always feel different about that group of kids. They're all really special to me and I see now that I must be pretty special to them too. That's good closure:)

As for today, I was just spending some time researching a school in Chicago for Brett. We're hoping that they are able to move out here soon. I'd say Joe and I are successful at recruiting new Chicago dwellers:) haha! Now I need to get in gear and get ready to leave for Grand Rapids. Joe and I are visiting friends for a pre-wedding weekend of fun. The boys are tubing with beer?! Sounds relaxing, while the girls will be visiting an art fair and the beach. Of course, we'll be relaxing with beer-type drinks after this:) Should be fun, hope the traffic is alright:)

Oh yeah, and I think I'm lactose-intolerant. This sucks, I love cereal!

Oh Photographer...

So we still have not received our wedding pictures. I edited a few more today from the collection that we have, here they are. I'm starting to get a little antsy about the pictures, we're going on a month...come on, I can't wait anymore!

Sleepy

For some reason I battled insomnia last night which has left me super tired today. I'm not the napping type, so that's out of the question. But I think my book, blanket and chair sound like the perfect afternoon. I really need to go to the social security office and change my name too though. Decisions, decisions...:)